hari yang mudah =)

"uhuh, spek dy cute la, cam aku nye spek~" haha pasan jap. 

nampak sorang budak chinese y cumel mase naek bas. she sits at the front, seat next to us (me n saza). aha budak ni! budak kiut yg cam salu in a rush & cam semat aa gaya dy. suke2~ i mean her character; semat la =D hoho~

then watch her for few minutes. she's too cute. maka nya, aku & saza pon menegur lah dy. hehe~ sembang2 sket. wat suprised me is, dy ckp dy penah nampak aku. i mean like, she recognized me la.. sonok plak rasa. haha. 

menaiki bas yg dipandu oleh p.cik yg baru belajar bawak bas. uhh waw. pacik, sila belajar ngan baek, anda membawa penumpang2 sekalian bersama ya.

tett tarattt taatt taaa~ sampai UMK. turun n terus head to kaunter tiket transnasional nak bli tiket bas balek raya. yeyy! ^^ hee~ bes hari ni sebab cuaca tak panas sgt, & tak bahang sgt cam salu. pastu p beli barang. makan. balik.

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cloud pagi td. captured by a junior at UMK pc campus =D

close up. ni pon also, not captured by me. haha~ subhanallah.cantik kan? ^^

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hari ni cam sgt mudah. i mean like from awal tadi nak pegi kampus kuar2 trus ada bas. then sampai, xpanas sgt nak even nak kena jalan agak jauh p bli tiket. then p makan, tyme masok kedai penoh, takde tempat duduk, tapi masok 3 langkah je dah ade org abes makan & ade tempat kosong. pastu nk balek, tunggu jap je, dah ada bas. waw~

"dipermudahkan urusan" kata saza. hehe~

atas bas tido jap (sempat lg kot! jaoh perjalanan.cewahh.) sampai bilik terus online. stengah jam kemudian dpt call dari SEC jemput pagi conference kat KL bout this enterprise things like that aa~ huhu eksaited2. 

=DD

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Angela Aki's "tegami" mashup. even more amazing than the ori version; the very spirit it possess =D

the 'quite' long lost friend; thanx!

thanx to this 'quite' long lost friend that i found back.

"tak boleh give up lagi.. walopon rasa mcm mustahil, tp cuba jalah"

"try buat sehabis baik utk hari ni, masa depan tu biaq kat dia"

words that somehow soothes me. maybe because he's experiencing the same thing, so basically we understand this burden.

can't tell how much i'm thankful for that you've come back. in a way like, i've found you that i used to know. a friend that i used to know. you that i used to know =D

how it been quite hard to be on my own, holding on. this fellow is like a pillow, in which i can just comfortably pour everything, without worries. hoho~

didn't have feelings for him okey. uhh yes, of course a big NO. need to clarify this. we have our own personal life. separated & different from each other. haha. but he's an amazing friend indeed. (that's why so semangat blogging bout him. XDD)

for being undertanding, for showing that you understand; thanks mr. friend. 

=DD

in this big ocean

There are times when I feel so scared. as if i was left there in the middle of the deep ocean. alone. 

i know i have Allah with me. that should be more than enough. 

but as a weak human, i still have the fear. scared. i pray for that there will be some other human being that would stand there by me, not just to hold my hands, but to understand me, my feelings and my fear and thus help me to keep swimming,,swimming out of this place up to the surface. 

i have lots of fear, be it bout the live i'm living in this huge world or the coming Hereafter. 

until i can find another human to understand & help me swimming up to surface, i'll try my very best not to drown. i'll try to learn how to swim myself. i have Allah with me. i'll keep trying, because i'm here. still alive. and i want to keep living. living a good live. until Allah asks me to stop and take me with Him.

=)

may Allah grand me this courage. Ameen.

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last night's dean list was saddening and inspiring. how much i want to achieve to that level too. this time too, i don't know if i will or can try my best, but for the time being that's what i'm going to do. 

asked a friend that we will too, stand a moment like that next semester. that message last night was actually like a promise i'm making with him, that both of us will work our very best to achieve that. but he seem not to know. guess he thought it was just a saying. but hey you there, i was serious actually^^ 

the very friend achieving dean's award last night was awesome. she's always been. and she keeps growing brighter. congratez ne =)

p/s: I love my family, my friends and myself.

=)

destiny brought people throughout the world. what's my destiny?

went for lunch after class and zaret told us bout the dean's list students from our class. total of 6 people. some unexpected friends are in the list.

and i sat there, silently.
numb.

wow~sugoii.

when will be my turn i wonder.. will i ever be able to taste that beautiful cloud too?

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facebooking in the evening. saw pictures of some friends overseas. studying there. lucky people. i guess destiny finds different way for different people. how destiny brings these people throughout the world. destiny set by the Almighty Allah sure are amazing. 

for me who might be thinking are stranded here, sure does gain lots of things actually, lots of experience and amazing friends. friends that i don't want to lose, ever. I might not improve a lot compared to these amazing friends i have (seriously, each & everyone of them are amazing.. in term of how much they've grown within these past 2 years), but this small being here, too, isn't the same person as she was few years back =)

destiny set different story for each people. what's my destiny?

only Allah s.w.t knows =')

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saw this one post from a senior on fb. a very inspiring quote indeed=)

" Bukan SAJA2 Allah meletakkan anda dalam BIDANG itu..

Bukan SAJA2 Allah mengurniakan anda KEPAKARAN itu..

Bukan SAJA2 Allah memasukkan KELEMAHAN itu..

Bukan SAJA2 Allah memberikan UJIAN sebegitu..

Bukan SAJA2 Allah membiarkan anda mengemudi dalam KEADAAN sebegitu..

Melainkan Allah tahu anda akan memberikan sesuatu dalam bidang itu..

Melainkan Allah tahu anda bakal membiakkan ilmu2 itu..

Melainkan Allah akan temukan anda dengan insan2 ikhlas membantu..

Melainkan Allah mahu menguatkanmu..

Melainkan Allah mahu anda tahu betapa tingginya kasih sayangNya padamu..

Masihkan lagi tidak bersyukur?"