All my electronic beloging; laptop, handphone, sim card (?) -- half-broken, and not to mention heart, which is now still under construction - going to rebuilt it to a stronger, better heart that it used to be.
I'm mad. and i have nothing to lie about it. every human have such feeling, the difference is that how we manage those feelings. this being here is trying to be a better human, but sometimes she fell too.
i stumped and sat there for a while.
thinking. thinking hard. what to do, and why..why is this happening all at once?
the broken laptop, the broken handphone + just knew the-not-good news. erghh.
i've been cheated - not cool. kinda like, hurt?.. mad?.. furious?..all mixed
the person i asked about then laugh at me, for that she knew i've been cheated - that's rude!
now what i'm going to do?.. how am i going to solve this?.. trade in and buy new one?.. or let them fix it and use it like i knew nothing bout it?.. or just let it be and use my old hp??
ohhh gerammmmmmnyaaaa!! >,<
sabar..dear self.
(is furious, but this time not to the point that feels like crying,,just...soooo furious.huk)
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for the things that happened, i'm not gonna cry. i've cried enough (for the simple heart problem which i failed to handle), not this time. i'm gonna stand strong (hope i can! >,<)
come!
there might be some other bad things coming to greet me, but i'm gonna face it with brave. those bad things might 'kick' and 'punch' me till i collapse, and even cry maybe.. and so, for the tears i'm going to shed, i will try my very best to be a better and stronger person than before.
i might cry a lot after this. and so, if i forget, remind me, remind me that i should stand stronger.
i'm gonna collect back each and every pieces of the broken me, glue them together or knead them all over again to make a stronger me!
Dear Allah, alhamdulillah for all this things You gave me; bad or good, are all just earthly test, for the next eternal life. Indeed Allah is The All Knowing.
"Innalillah wa-inna ilaihi raji'un- Truly to Allah we belong, and truly to Him shall we return"
